Manic Memories: Post 29


Food is brought to me on trays and it scares me.

Why are they giving me this stuff I can’t stand?

I stare at it and try to find reasoning in the choices.

Is everything meant to be a challenge?

Who’s in charge of choosing this stuff anyway.

Of the things I do eat, I’m afraid as soon as I taste them they’ll taste like something else, something I hate.

I think rice will taste like peas, tea like coffee.

Slowly I try things.

I even drink a real cup of coffee I think that is meant to challenge me.

I’ve never had coffee in my life and I hate every second of it, but I did it.

Every meal it is interesting to see what they have in store for me.

Later I am able to get my own tray, after having stolen a few that didn’t belong to me.

I couldn’t understand the system.

Strange, but the menus look the same as in Boston. Food was better there.

Finally Lauren shows me how to order what I want from my own menu.

I always forget to order on time.

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2 Responses to Manic Memories: Post 29

  1. Irene says:

    I was diagnoised with Bipolar II/aniety disodrer/mood disodrer 13 years ago and if I can tell you anything about my struggle with my illness is that I don’t let my illness define me .I define it. What I hope most of all is that you understand what I mean when I tell you that though I do not know you and even though I may never meet you, laugh with you, cry with you, or kiss you, I love you. With all my heart, I love you. ~Vtake care of yourself.

  2. admin says:

    Thanks so much Irene for your comment! I also go about my regular life, and my daily reminder is just my meds in the morning and evening. I’m so busy with my husband, kids and job, who has time to lament or feel sorry for themselves. I totally agree with you. All the best to you, CO

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